firstly

MERRY CHRISTMAS

TO EVERYONE

and

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY YOUNGEST BROTHER

its the first time i didnt went out on Christmas Eve night. im so used to counting down Xmas and New Year in pubs or discos. but this year i am at HOME due to confinement!

so weird. but heng, not that bored as i expected.

i thought i had to be home-alone with my baobei girl for count-down -> cause mummy, and my 2 younger brothers will be going out. but luckily, my uncle [from KL] come to visit us this year and my aunt also came over [as she quarrel wz her hubby] =X . thus, i got accompany.. haha. we played our ' malaysian style' mahjong again. =) . so this year i count-down my Xmas with my jiu jiu and ah yi and of cause,

for the FIRST TIME, with my baobei girl. ^,^Y

my mum really cook martell with chicken for me. =( darn! it totally sucks. she cooked the chicken with only martell and chicken essence! no water added! can you imagine how smelly??? i was asked to drink it not to eat the chicken. ZZZ. thou its only a small bowl after she boiled it for 3hours,but i can only be able to drink 3 sips, and i cant take it anymore.

yes, i felt so bad that i eventually pour it away......

but i really really really cannot stand that awful smell and

not to say the taste of pure martell with chicken essence!

i want i want to go out lorh!!! =P

baby ger will be in her full month soon.

yup happy cause that means my confinement is ending too! =)

mum decided not to have any big celebration,

just celebrating it among our family on next monday.

thou we are not inviting people over

but will be giving out cakes to friends and relatives.

i think mum just dont wish to have many people over

[prevent gossips barhs.]

whatever, cause im fine with any plans. ^,^

baby ger's pictures

inLOVE

`simply loved my girl so much.

today is Dong Zhi.

阿凤阿姨 and 姨丈 came over my house to visit me and see baby ger. ^.^

evening time, get to go over to grandma house for reunion.

some relatives was there too - 小叔 and family, 五伯 and family, 六伯 and 小姑.

baby ger become the center of attraction. haha..

cause she is simply too adorable and cute! =X

although the atmosphere was a lil awkward when they ask me about baby ger's name.

but luckily they are not those 'irritating' ones who will keep asking me 'stupid question'. =)

as i was saying i dont want any more liquor...

i received yet ANOTHER Benedictine D.O.M again!!

wahahahaha~~~!!!

seriously, i had no idea how to get rid of those D.O.M! now i got 4 bottles!!

thou its good for health but not many drinks them..

cause its not martell or chivas! even my those 'alcoholic' friends dont want it.! =(

i know i should be the one drinking it, but i really dont touch anything alcohol.

i will get sick! LOL. rashes / headaches...

drinking alcohol is a torture for me!!!

no kidding okays!!!

my life now is all about my girl =) . feed her, hug her, kiss her.. change her poo-poo. had to feed her every 2-3hours, and my girl seriously having irregular eating time! and she MUST be hug to sleep, and must be until she is in deep sleep then can rest her on her bed. if not, she will yells again!! =( . thou its really [x100000] tiring, but still, i finds it really worth it. hee~ especially when you see her, you just couldnt stop doing those things for her willingly.. not to say her smile just melts me away~~ LOL. my lil princess is timid, tends to jump up during sleep, cries out loud during bath.. and that makes me feel like protecting her even MORE... =X

i really hope i wont spoilt her...

but its hard..

i remember before giving birth, i still says that if my baby cries for hug, i will just let her cry until she stops!! but now, i can only be able to let her cry 5mins and i couldnt bear to let her cry anymore!!! haahaa~ =.= going to 3weeks since her birth, until now, i still felt unbelievable that she is really out. and the amazing feelings for having a new life still lingers. =) everytime i see her, its like all the pains and tortures that i had gone through will simply wears off my mind..

this is just so nice okays.. yeah~

agree, all mothers ? ^,^Y

2weeks 4days old ^,^Y

edlysia is 2weeks 4days old already! =) watching her growing up day by day is really a wonderful thing to do. haha~ life cannot be happier without her.. thou' she is still as 'nottie'. people had been keep giving me liquor! =.=" its nice... but my family dont really drinks. and for me, i dont even touch liquor at all. my house is now having 3bottles of the Benedictine DOM, 1 Martell Cordon Bleu, 1 Hennessy VSOP, 2 red wine.. ZZZ. sorry to say, please dont give us anymore liquors!! i rather have essence! =X haha...

*** i want to go out!! cant wait for confinement to end...

baby ger is 2 weeks 2 days old today. =) everything is getting better in shape too. so are my wound. yipee! yeah!~ recall back the past 2 weeks, i really cant believe that i had pull through it finally..! so happy! now i had to look forward for the future to come. i knew i have to prepare for more busier days to come.. and i also have to work more [x100] harder for my baby ger!!! i must jiayou lerh~~~ ^,^

i need a pram!

lol. havent get baby ger a pram yet.. hmm.. anyone got any ideas where to find good prams but not expensive??

haha.. i am having so much cravings for food now! got a long list of food that i wanted to eat!!!!! due to my confinement, everything i consume contains ginger! yucky~ cause i dont really like ginger but i have no choice. =( . didnt get to drink a sip of cold iced water, which is just so unbelievable for me to have done that!! thou confinement is really sucky~ but compared to wound pain that i had suffered earlier, its so much better. feel like going town to see the lightings for X'Mas! hmm... 0,o...

FRIENDSTER SUCKS!

my girl ^,^

yes, get to bath today ! LOL. finally. didnt get to wash myself with soap at all since 29november! can you imagine?? i can only get to clean myself using wet warm towel for the past days! not to say get to wash my hair! but, phew~ at last i get to bath and wash my hair .so happy~ =) i felt so lucky that im doing confinement during the singapore's coolest season! haha.. its been raining mostly all these days, so i dont need to suffer that much. hope it rains everyday! =X [others gonna kill me]

my girl had been naughtier, crying much more oftens now.. somemore her cries is so loud and long~ i still can tahan but she is making my mum go nuts! she just wont stop crying... until she gets what she wants. -.-" i thinks all newborn is like that bah?? somehow i missed the first few days, when she is eventually quieter. LOL.

OMG! SO SAD! =(
i just realised that my hip bones had expanded!!! WTF!!! **cry out loud! =(
i didnt grow much fats during pregnancy, but somehow my hip bones got expanded. fark!
fats can be burn away, but i think bones will never go back to its origin. right? zzzzz.
this pregnancy had totally disfigured me! haha.. although i didnt grow fat. but those scars left by the rashes i had earlier was way enough.. thou i dont have stretchmarks on my tummy but i had some on my thighs and bum =X. i cant wear back my old jeans!! haix. but mum said now is still early, its only one week plus, she told me i can slim back as days goes by.. hmm... hopefully =)

my friends told me it was such a waste that i am not eligible for the baby bonus scheme, cause i am not married. well, to me, it doesnt really matters much. of cause if i can get, the money could help me out alot, but if time turns back, i will still choose the same old thing like now. i know there are people who discriminates me, hates me. whatever okays! yes! on the surface, i may not be the right one. but who cares it anyway? frankly, i am not someone who will go around telling people about whoever, whatever. neither will i tell people about my stuffs. afterall, its my business and i do thinks that i dont have the needs to explain everything to everyone. thats me. take it or just leave it.

MY GER'S LIL JOURNAL

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THE BIRTH STORY
im having contraction since 27 november 2008. as it was very constant, was asked to hospitalised to induce baby ger out but i choose to go home to wait for the pain instead. having mild cramps for the next 2 days but dont seems like contraction pain to me as its poking kind. 28 november 2008 night, had some brown muscus discharge, but was told it was normal as i had a cervix check just the day before.

29 november 2008
i didnt sleep for the whole night since 28 november 2008. was feeling uncomfortable about the vaginal pain that im having throughout the night. it started around 10plus in the morning that i start to feel very mild contraction pain. didnt really take note of it cause my vaginal was also in pain. [the needle-like pain] it was till around 11am, i start to notice that the contraction pain didnt subside. i start to time it - almost exactly 10minutes once .. wasnt really sure about it so i continue to time it till 12pm plus!! haha. called up my mum to tell her about my constant pain, she then asked me to go hospital. as mum and dad were working, she asked my 2nd younger brother to accompany me over. slowly i went bath and packed some stuff for admission and headed down to KK Hospital. the contraction pain is still mild at then, so i am still able to walk, waited 20minutes for cab. zzzz.~so reached KK Hospital around 2pm. i walked to the delivery suite and tell them that i am having constant pain. the nurse-on-duty check on me and i was 3cm dilated so i was sent to the delivery room immediately. my 2nd brother was unable to come in and had to 'bird' outside. as it was a SATURDAY, dad's shop is so busy with customer that they couldnt rushed down for my admission. im sucha fool that i didnt do my admission thing earlier, end up, i couldnt be able to had my gynae - Dr Tseng to come for my delivery as i need to admit to B1 ward in order to have him over but i had to pay SGD 700 immediately! [this was my FIRST foolish stupid thing] i wasnt told earlier, so i was unaware about all these!! i wanted to stay in no air-con wards [cause im so afraid of cold] but i wished to have my gynae to assist in my delivery afterall i had been seeing him all these while. in dilema, but yet i still choose to had my gynae over,called my mum, and asked her to come down cause i dont have SGD700 in my bank account.but the outcome is they are unable to wait for my mum to come down and pay!!!! wtf? they say if only using medisave, they can delay but i had to pay the SGD 700 immediately.=.=" they say i was admitted at 2pm plus, its already half an hour, they need to get the paper work ready by an hour. in the end, i was somehow 'being force' to give up having my gynae to come over. i took a B2 ward then cause its fully subsidised by medisave, no air-con and i can just use my medisave so my mum dont need to rush down for me.

alone in the room,strapped on for CTG and on dripped. 3pm plus, the doctor-on-duty came to check on me, i was 4cm dilated but not much effaced. the contraction got more tense but i am still fine with it. tried holding my breathe everytime the contraction pain comes.at that moment, 2 nurse came in and talked to me about a survey that they are doing. [this was my ANOTHER foolish stupid thing], it was about the directed delivery and the spontaneous delivery thing, i am not sure if you guys know about this. it was like saying, cause singapore had always been having directed delivery [guided delivery by midwives, nurses or doctors.] but due to some reports, other countries are performing something called spontaneous delivery [no guided, push when you feel like pushing.], and it turns out seems better than directed delivery, so they was doing the survey, as i wasnt using any pain-relief methods [no epidural or jabs was used], and i must be first-timer and aged 21 and above, so i was eligible for it. i swear at that particular moment, i knows what the nurse means about the directed and spontaneous, but i got a little misunderstood! maybe because her english was so 'indian' slang that i didnt really catch the ball, end up, i stupidly agreed for doing that survey and signed cause i thought it was just that i can be allowed to push when i want..[but actually not.] i still remember that i asked the nurse, ' its actually nothing much right? ' and she replied 'yah, just to let you know. actually its nothing much.' i didnt really put that part in mind, never will i know that IT will become my foolish act in the later part! my mum reached around 6pm,she was allowed in the delivery suite because i am not married. *special case.

the contraction at that point comes every 5minutes interval. i am still coping well with the pain. around 8pm, the doctor-on-duty came and checked on me again, 5cm dilated, so he broke my water bag. inserted something into my vaginal to listen to baby's heartbeat. so sickening, that thing keep come out and he had to keep putting.. ZZZ. for several times. so uncomfortable okays!! he's like not treating my vaginal a thing that do had feelings!!! i was being asked if i wanted epidural, the nurse asked me to consider carefully cause she say if later i want, it will be too late. cause pain-relief jab is already no use for me at that moment already. but i still insist on not taking. when my water bag burst, big gush of warm water flows out, a short relief. phew~ and this was when the 'kick' starts, after my water bag was burst, the pain rise!!!! from my scoreboard of 2, i put it onto 6!!! at around 9pm, i start using the so-called laughing gas. no use for me at all, it seems like i am breathing oxygen. haha. no smell, no 'high' , no reliefs!! simply like air to me!!!! OMG~

but i still tried my best to endure it.around 10pm, there was a part i feel like shitting, i told the nurse, she say shit lorx. i remember seeing other's mothers' blogs that feeling like passing-motion its a sign that maybe baby is coming out! but my feelings tells me that its not that kind, its i really wanted to SHIT! so i yell, no i really wanted to shit! but yet, she still say shit lorx!!! my mum also asked me to shit, and this is my MOST EMBARRASSING thing i ever did in my life okays! i REALLY SHITTED!! god damn! i feel so embarrassing but the shit just came out uncontrollably! the doctor-on-duty came and he saw i shitted too lorx, haix. LOL. he checked me again after the nurse cleanse my *rubbish* and i was only 6cm dilated! what the hell, i was like huh???? only 1 more cm???

i let out my first yells at around 11pm plus, the contraction is like never really stops. i thinks maybe its every 1min interval bah, not very clear already cause the pain is making me hell. i vividly remember my mum tries to put the gas on me but i push it away. its a totally irritating thing to me by then! haha, i rather choose to go without it. so i was holding my breathe almost every minute. i yell for about 10mins, till there's a part i screamed, "i want epidural!!!" lol.

then, the doctor-on-duty came back in again, checked me and he said OA. lights shines on me. yes! i know its time. and very luckily, i was 10cm dilated in just an hour! a midwife came in, she only said one sentence:" ok, good, open up your legs, use ur hands and hold your legs open." then, another nurse came in and said:" she's on survey, you cant assist!" i heard that and i was like WTF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! so the midwife went out, left only the nurse-in-charge for me was in the room! [my mum went out too cause she dont dare to watch the procedure.] i swear at that very point of time i totally regretted! i didnt know, spontaneous delivery its TOTALLY no one to guide me AT ALL!!!!! how i know what to do sia??? and the only nurse was like sitting down at a side with a file on the table, watching me! the only thing she said was "push when you feel like pushing". i felt alone, helpless! my mind is i only want to end it ASAP! i tried to push even when i am not feeling the contraction pains. after several tries, i still dont feel any feelings of passing motion neither do i feels that my baby is coming out! i can even feels her kicks, so she's still in my tummy lorx! i shouted to the nurse, i dont want to do the survey anymore, i want someone to guide me but she just asked me to try! _l_ farked okays! i know i got no one to help me so i push myself, keep pushing and pushing.

until around 12am plus, i felt something in my vaginal, hard one. i sense its my baby. so i keep pushing and i hold on to my breathe instead of letting off cause i scare if i let off, baby will go back to the womb again.haha. and after 3-4times i hold my breathe and push i can feel she is coming out! i vividly saw the nurse stood up and start preparing, i told myself to hang on to my breathe, and one last push, finally she's OUT at 12.30am!! the nurse came quickly to cleanse baby ger. it was a TOTAL relief~ i almost went breatheless! my throat is totally dried up for my constantly deep-breathing and yelling. she cries out loud the moments she is out! and was kicking my legs. i thought i will cry, but i didnt. hmm.. but i felt really happy, an undescribable joy inside me. but then, my MOST worried part came, the stitching!! i was jab at the vaginal areas, but not all fully numbed. some parts when the doctor sew me, i can feel the poking pain!! really hell! people use laughing gas during contractions, i used it during stitching!! LOL. cause it makes me feels more secured perhaps although its not pain-reliefing at all.

everything done, and i was sent to ward. i couldnt sleep at all till the next day evening!! the tremor stills with me, not about the delivery part, but the stitching part!! dont ask me why, i also dont understands why, although stitching is not really that painful, but it just turns me and makes me goes nuts!!!!

thank god, although it wasnt easy although at that moment was like hell but im glad i experienced it this way cause at least i did manage to overcome it! yes~ FINALLY. =).
now is the final 'torturing', and the 'worst' part to me! the after-maths pain!! the wound!
hope it heals fast~ i want to be TOTALLY free!!! haha..

FINALLY....


pardon me for my super duper late update. hehe =X. for the past one week, so0o0o many things to do. been thru' and fro' polyclinic thrice already for checking Edlysia's jaundice level. and still gotta check again on tuesday cause her jaundice level was once high up till 255! but luckily went down abit the next day. phew~ hopefully it goes lower and lower soon!! ^,^ . LOL. yeap, busy and also the DISCOMFORTS and PAINS of my wound is like hell !!! and somehow post-natal blues seems to have hit me during the past few days. been crying and feeling terrible. =(. couldnt sleep well, or i can say didnt really sleep at all ever since after delivery!! and i had been having bad dreams.. =(. due to some incidents that happened when i am in the hospital, i think i become so farking tense-up! i couldnt help worrying about my girl will be taken away! _l_ those people! yes, im rude and impolite, but thats ME! =X. yes! the phobia is there, i must say. but luckily, im getting better now. i must admit it was my girl that makes me ENDURE everything!!!! if not, i think i wont be able to go through all this! yes, now she is my MOTIVATION, STRENGTH and almost EVERYTHING! =). right now my mind is already more loosen up, and emotionally being better. but physically, still not yet. =(. haha..the wound still hurts!!!! those painkillers prescribed dont works on me!!! and thats really sucks! the first few days it hurts so much that i couldnt even walk or move myself. totally almost lost my mind over it! if there is a choice, i would rather have contraction pain!!! before, during and after delivery, i still thinks after delivery is the WORST period!!! hopefully, i can recover ASAP! lastly,about my birth story , i will post it later.. so stay tuned..

for now, here are some pics of my baby girl =) .

just born! sorri for the view, not well-taken =X



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sweet dreams! =P



8hours old~



hi ppl! =P

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