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wanted to upload some videos of baby edlysia but for unknown reason, i cant manage to transfer the files from my phone into the computer. *sad.

gonna start figuring out what went wrong, is it my phone? or the computer?

recently is kinda lifeless. i should get a job. but still doubting about putting baby edlysia in infant care. seriously, im not settling my heart over this solution. however, if i wanted to work, its the only choice available. mummy suggest me to wait till baby edlysia is older before heading out to work.

should i or not?

nowadays, i tends to flip back my mind. LOL. memories filling me up slowly. emotionally affected. dah, i can be weak at times. =(

baby edlysia is 2 months old today. =)

time really flies, she had grown into a chubby cutie pie now.

some of her clothes cant fit in anymore.

after a long absence due to the Chinese New Year,

finally had the available time to blog.

had my reunion dinner at grandma house.

yah, steamboat! steamboat!

Day One, went grandma house again.

not many relatives came this year. sigh.

thus making my CNY more quiet. =(

but also good lah, cause i give lesser ang baos [red packets].

hehe.

Day Two, went grandma house AGAIN.

no place to go too.

LOL.

although its boring there, but i just love eating my grandma's ngoh hiang.

and of cause the steamboat!!!

as the soup base is soooo yummy. and the home-made ngoh hiang.

cant find any that can taste better than my grandma's.

played mahjong with my grandma, mummy and uncle.

and yeah! i win!!

was very lucky recently... =)

at night, went cineleisure to meet Pris for Kbox-ing.

sing until 6am. Pris came my house over-night.

Day Three, woke up early went Serangoon to eat.

with mummy, daddy, Pris and my baby edlysia.

and after that, went to buy baby edlysia's pampers and baby wipes.

headed home. play mahjong AGAIN.

Jowell and her boyfriend came around 6pm.

had my day playing mahjong till 4am plus.

hmm.. dont really know what to blog anymore.

kinda no mood recently. and i realised im getting lazier these few days.

shall just stop here.

below are all the pictures.

D.I.Y my nail this year.

dont have the time to do any manicure or pedicure.

help my mum do hers too.

these are my design

say bye bye to the Year of the Rat soon and prepare to welcome the Almighty Ox!! =X.

being a little biased over here as you can see im born in the Year of the Ox. lol.

alright, what i was trying to say was that Chinese New Year is just around the corner.

only 3more days!!!

and unexpectedly, this year i am celebrating it with one more new member in our family

- my lil baby edlysia. =)

talking about CNY, i really missed celebrating it with my relatives [mother side] in Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia.

its been for 3 consistent years that we didnt go back there during CNY.

as in the past we used to go back every year before my grandma [wai po] passed away in 2004. =( frankly, i enjoy celebrating CNY at there than in Singapore.

firstly because the atmosphere is so different, my CNY in Singapore is always so quiet. yes way too boring can!! dont really have much conversations or interactions between my relatives here. its as thou everyone go my grandma house for the sake of being there - just like reporting there only because its CNY so no choice. plus with those gossipers around and those stupid COMPARISONS that people like to do over here, makes me more ZZZ. but over at KL, its a completely different scenario. almost all my relatives stays in one village - Kepong Ulu. one big family living under one roof. and other relatives are just staying one or two streets away.

which makes gatherings much more crowded. thus, more fun and laughters.

secondly, im more prone to love the people there.

and well, im more close to them than those relatives [father side] over here in Singapore.

somehow i do find them much more friendly. they are not picky over who to befriend with. and to them, everyone is the SAME. they will not do judgements on people neither will they despise people. for instance, they wont discriminate me because im a single mother or even if i did something terribly wrong. they do gives me support because they believe that family should stand together against all odds and not rivaling, pushing each other towards dead ends. they are poor but they learn to live life more happily and joyful than others. at times i do admire and envy them. if possible, i may just migrate over and stay there instead. haha. im a simple person, and adore simplicity. i detest complications and when it comes to socialising, i loathe those kind of fake courtesy. im adhere to people who treats others with his/her heart and not using his/her mind. as im also one of them. i dont really like to think about how i am going to treat that person because of whatever reason behind, i wish i could just treat the person by how my heart tells me to. =). haha~ so that makes me a straight-forward person at times.

thirdly, i do feel more carefree and stress-free over there.

but too bad, this year we are yet again unable to go back as baby edlysia was too young to travel.

at first, mummy did feel like going back as we got the available time cause daddy had decided to rest a few more days before resuming business after CNY this year. but it would be too tedious if we bring baby edlysia along and due to the fact that the environment over there isnt very good - lots of mosquitos at night and poor hygiene, we are also afraid that her immune system are not strong enough to handle it, so she drop the idea. hmm, also true lah, baby edlysia is only 1mth going 2 mth old. still fragile. =]

after the long awaiting. hereby below are all baby edlysia pictures. ^,^

she had lots of expressions. so cute =P

she is now able to response to people - especially me, mummy & daddy.

she likes to glance at people by the side, haha kinda looks like she 'diao' people like that. =X.

she enjoys watching the television and listening to music.

she yearn for accompany and love to play.

when we are talking, sometimes she will also be a 'kpo', will make some noise as if she is talking.

lovely yeah?

nah, not really. she is also very bad-tempered! gets irritated 'pek cek' easily,

especially when she didnt get to drink her milk in time,

she can cry until her whole face turns red!

she do get annoyed easily. haa~

i nicknamed her ' xiao bu dian'

LOL

mummy helding her. saw the picture that she is angry?

afterall, i still

looking after baby edlysia and doing housechores makes me busy busy busy.. especially nowadays had to tidy up the house as CNY is coming near, im more busy than usual. =(

went Jurong Point to meet Pris on Monday for a quick shopping. yar, i spent again! =X

cabbing costs me lots that day, tru and fro more than $50, ZZZ! as Jurong Point is kinda far from my house, but wanted to take a look at the new extention of the shopping mall. wooh~ really much bigger than the past and damn lots of shops and also resturants. hopefully one day my house nearby can have such big shopping mall. it would be so much convenient.... *grin.

we only get to shop for about 2hours or so and went home. LOL.

my expenses for janaury is HEAVY.

ive bought quite alot of stuffs:

regarding my previous post about my bodyache, seriously i dont know if it was really because i sleep with air-con quite a few times during my confinement. =X. well, for your information, i only on the air-con at 26degree. i did follow almost all the confinement rules, i didnt bath unless my mum tells me to, and even if i bath, i also uses the herbs water, not tap water. i didnt eat any cold stuffs and drinks only the ginger with red dates drink or plain water. the only thing i broke the rules is i wore sleeveless clothes and so the cold wind [its chilling during december] can blow on me through the windows, and i switch on my fan 24/7 but it wasnt blowing at me directly!! somehow, i believe those things that i did are very common, right? almost got 90percent of the confinement woman also wont obey de lorx. LOL. who can tolerate not bathing yet cant even on the FAN?? haix. i dont even have the guts to tell my mum about the bodyache now, she sure blast me to hell for not listening to her previously. how how how, what to do? will painkillers cure me?=( . afterall i now believe its my punishment. so those mother-to-be, better do obey all rules during the confinement period. aint kidding, cause im a very good example now. dont follow what i did, even if you are really sweating like hell. =X.

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and hereby, i will like to state about this guy KM who had tagged on my CBox. obviously, he was tagging to my friend, Pris, using my cbox! wtf.! yes, seems like we are being nasty towards him, but its not that so! he dont deserve any pity for all his doings okay. well, everything started when Pris accepted him as friend in friendster. and dont know since when, he started to send her messages and comments. and he says he is fond of her all sort. okay, fine. its nothing wrong to like or love [what he always say] someone, i think its a freewill. but, when he started to copy her photos and put it as his friendster's background, and even took photos on his lappy n handphone that is all filled up with my friend's photo, i start to find it digusting! he can even wrote a so-called love letter, snap it with him holding the letter and post it in friendster, publicising to everyone! isnt this insanity? and he said this is LOVE?? OMG!!! taking those photo without permission is already a wrong doing! and somemore still dare to display it to show my friend and when i confronted him and telling him out, he can explain that it was all because he LOVED her! totally out-of-mind! and please, all along my friend dont even know him at all!!! not even chatted with him through any source okay! and he can even tell me, "you dont need to know a person to love a person." haha, yar, i do agree that and i dont oppose he love her but the ways he had been doing aint healthy at all. seriously, i do find it completely harassing! and this happened like more than half a year ago. she been trying to ignore all his rubbish, but yet he still bombarding her. not even to Pris, and sometimes to her friends, like us. ZZZZZ. my friend eventually private her blog and now, he came tag on mine! i cant describe much more, you guys see it yourself cause the more i type the more anger rise in me!

finally, i know how to snap a clear image using that Samsung i8! yeah~ happy! sounds ridiculous right? how can i dont even know how to take a picture? LOL. well, i do know how to take picture but perhaps i can say, i dont really know how to use that digital camera. more than half a year for me to figure out the functions. -.-" haha sucha a lame joke~ nah its not a joke. =B

getting intolerant over mummy, she been admonishing me not to buy any more clothes for baby edlysia, yet she herself went to buy again and again. arhhh~ haha.. really buay ta han.

but also okay lah, she buys means i can save money. ^,^

hmm.my whole body is aching since after birth. just mild pain. somehow it seems kinda abnormal that it had been over a month but im not getting any better. it hurts even when i clutch my fingers!! getting a little worried about it now. supposingly i should go polyclinic on Monday to do a postnatal check-up. but sad to say, i didnt go. and the reason being? haixxx...cause i am lazy. =X

-- serves me right for having those pains!

after the insanity of purchasing those un-needed stuffs during the past few days, ha *awesome, now im almost penniless! reflected on myself yesterday, been wondering what is actually underlying in me which causes all these acts, although i didnt manage to sort out the answer in the end but still cannot deny im a reckless spender indeed. ive tons of clothings and heels piling up that i dont even have the storage space to keep them anymore, but yet, im still buying. ZZZZZZ. oh god, really getting fed up over myself! i aint going to tolerate myself for behaving this way anymore.

money is not everything but it is essential in our life. especially we are talking about living in Singapore. heard before this phrase that is once popular? ; 'no money no talk'. haha. so well said isnt it? basically every little bits here needs money, even when you throw a cigerette butt on the floor you may also need to pay money for the fine. occasionally, i do felt lucky for not being born in a rich family. o.0 as i cant imagine how i will be spending if my family is rich, i think i might end up using up all the family's assets. LOL.

baby edlysia is growing rapidly. her looks are constantly changing, so are her size. haha. she's a witty but clamorous girl. not exaggerating, her loud demanding outcrys can really make people go nuts.

in spite of the fact that she is sucha a nottie girl [i hope only for now], i still love her! wahaha..

an overdue picture but i simply love this so much.

lil cutie pie ^,^

argh... im feeling bad. i went to posb bank at heartland mall to change my address alone yesterday, left baby edlysia at home and asked my brothers to look after her for awhile. i cabbed down instead of taking bus to save time although heartland mall is quite near my house. seriously, i really thinks that i should refrain myself to go out alone as i cannot resist the temptation in me on spending. haix. yes, i went out for an hour, but i spent hundreds. i felt so bad now, and truly regretted for my doings. damn shit me!!!!!! why am i always like this?!?! in fact its nothing wrong doing purchasing as everyone does that, but my situation is not just that normal. as firstly, my finance are very low and my cashflow are tight cause i havent got back to work and secondly, im aware of it! i clearly knows that i am not in the state to be sucha spender, but i did. =( and what worse is that the money was what i had been saving for the past few weeks and yet i can eventually spent it in just an hour! im really hopeless.. i really need to learn to control.. really!!!!! there are gamble-addicts/ alcoholic etc. i thinks im an addict of spending but not shopaholic. not kidding, somehow i, myself feels that the way im spending is superbly unhealthy. those things i spent on may not be because i need or fond of those things, i can spent because i just want to spent, there are even times that i will feel like spending but cant think of anything to buy! this could happens even if im broke okay. thats how utterly crazy i am. and that also explains why i can have no savings at the age of 23! how much i earn, how much i spend. i had been trying to control myself, but the most i can stop myself for spending recklessly was like for 2months? yes, i can save up for months but yet in the end spent the money in days! wtf.. its like somehow as thou i just want to get rid of those money i had.

sounds like im completely insane right?

omg....can anyone diagnose me?